Shavua Tov / Happy Week.

I have a lot of good stuff to blog about! Unfortunately, I let it pile up too high, way too high, and then my perfectionist needs kicked in and I couldn’t write because there were too many posts for me to feel they could be good enough. New strategy… let’s try writing snippets until I can get back into the swing of things. Truly, I am not good with discipline… or self-discipline. (Note to self: Stop criticizing you!) However, if this blog is going to survive, I think I need to post on a schedule of at least once per week. (more…)

I had a dream about the narcissist and his new girlfriend.

Actually, it wasn’t a dream. It was a photograph. Remember the old instant cameras that took a photo that was square with a white border around it? I saw one of those photos in my mind while I was asleep, and I “knew” it was from David’s Facebook page. [To be clear, David blocked me from his Facebook over a year ago and I never tried to circumvent his ruling. I could have gone to mutual acquaintances to see what he posted, but I knew the narcissist well enough to be certain that he would use his Facebook profile as a (more…)

The 2nd anniversary of the day I left Israel to be with the narcissist.

Yesterday I realized that August 28th, 2015 was the 2nd anniversary of the day I left Israel to be with the narcissist. It has been two years since I left Israel. Wow, I can’t believe it. It’s been a terrible time for me, really crappy, but it feels like a rough month – not two years! I remember everything so vividly. I was living in my rental apartment in Safed. I was on the top floor and my bedroom window looked out upon the moon. Every night, I used to lie in bed, window completely ajar, no screens, feel the breeze (more…)

Recovery: First Day at the New Job.

The new job is good. The things I was afraid of turned out to be non-existent. For example, I worried that I wouldn’t get breaks, then I would get too hungry, and screech at a customer – but nobody oversees my breaks. I can take them whenever I want. I did notice that no-one else took a proper break, in the breakroom, for 30 minutes straight – but I sure as hell will be. (PS. There is no hell.) Every employee (and there aren’t many) has worked there less than 9 months. The entire crew is brand spanking new, so I am not so far (more…)

Disney’s Descendants: Class Roster 2015.

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Exploring the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator® (MBTI®) personality types.

Source: The Myers & Briggs Foundation website MBTI http://www.myersbriggs.org/my-mbti-personality-type/mbti-basics/ Excerpted from the MBTI® Manual: A Guide to the Development and Use of the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator® Favorite world: Do you prefer to focus on the outer world or on your own inner world? This is called Extraversion (E) or Introversion (I). Information: Do you prefer to focus on the basic information you take in or do you prefer to interpret and add meaning? This is called Sensing (S) or Intuition (N). Decisions: When making decisions, do you prefer to first look at logic and consistency or first look at the people (more…)

Journal. 30Aug2015. Fake it till you make it.

I’m cleaning off my desk today (well, maybe a corner of it) and I’ve decided to post some of the half-finished posts I have lying around. Being a Perfectionist, no… a Grand Perfectionist, I tend to hold onto projects until I can get them to be just right (AKA brilliant). Usually, it’s a dysfunctional system that works – but when my self-esteem is low, the whole machine breaks down, I freeze, and no writing gets done. Given that writing is my only Therapy, this stalling is dangerous for me. I can spiral into depression or daydreaming. Currently, I have been watching (more…)