Today’s LOL.

WordPress says: “It’s been 25 days since you published I Forgive The Narcissist. ” And it has zero likes! I laughed when I saw that. What’s wrong with you people? I finally turned my corner. Three YEARS it took me to get to a serene place and not one reader hits “Like”!  I get it. You are holding onto the anger because you are waiting for justice.     Please share this:Click to share on Twitter (Opens in new window)Click to share on Facebook (Opens in new window)Click to share on Pinterest (Opens in new window)Click to share on Tumblr (Opens in new window)Click (more…)

Sometimes You Just Gotta Write Shit Down.

For a new post title, I’m thinking: If You Don’t Like Complaints, Then Don’t Read This Post. Nothin’ To See Here, Folks. or the slightly cryptic “Going Dark” Well, I have discovered that I cannot write a recovery blog when I am not recovering. The cycles of grief are just the same shit over again. And I know it’s crazy. I am doing the same shit over again and I am feeling the same shit over again and it’s been TWO YEARS since I saw the narcissist. What the fuck! Reality is that I have no idea where he is or what (more…)

I Quit My Job.

One Sunday afternoon in late March, I was selling at the appliance store. It had been damn busy all day, but then there was a moment. I was standing in the middle of the washing machine section, so the appliances only came up to my waist and I had a straight shot line of vision to the front doors. A man came into the store, walked directly to me, handed me a business card, and said, “We are hiring store managers and assistant store managers.” I looked down at the card in my hand and it was for a shoe company. (more…)

Aspirations.

Ways I want to IMPROVE MY LIFE: EAT at the TABLE, not at the TV. WALK every day. READ more. GOOD STUFF i already do: daily vitamins chiropractic care live with cats SHABBAT Limit caffeine Drink water instead of soda.   (version 14Apr2016)   Please share this:Click to share on Twitter (Opens in new window)Click to share on Facebook (Opens in new window)Click to share on Pinterest (Opens in new window)Click to share on Tumblr (Opens in new window)Click to share on Pocket (Opens in new window)Click to share on Google+ (Opens in new window)Click to share on Reddit (Opens in (more…)

Chiropractic with Dr. Marité.

It annoys me that Chiropractic can end in an “-ic” but still be a noun, yet that is the case. I am one month behind in writing posts about the chiropractor, so I am skipping ahead to write about the visit I had today. I like Doctor Marité because she is an intuitive like me. Our vibrations run very similar and she can easily find my sore spots and subluxations without being told by me where they are. However, I am impatient and I would sometimes like to tell her, “Please go here, now!” Doctor Marité starts by taking my left (more…)

And the Secret to Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse is… Chiropractic Adjustment.

Let’s look back at how I was feeling: 13July2015. I haven’t been writing this week because I’ve been in a deep, dark funk. I don’t want to be here anymore. I want to stop existing. This is not the same as having suicidal thoughts, although I would step over a cliff if I could do it without being seen; but not anything active (versus passive). I was thinking more along the lines of seeing a giant whirlpool open up in the carpet and suck me into non-existence just like some cheesy special effect in a Dr. Who episode. The carpet absorbs me. (more…)

Recovery: Clinging to Tension.

I watched another sappy movie this morning, a new one this time, the black African-American version of “Annie”. It was really good. It had me with tears streaming down my face – and that’s what I needed. I tend to hold tension in my body. I literally cleave it to my cells. Physically, it is most obvious when I get my menstrual cycle. I can feel the changes in my body and know that it is time to release, but I wait for it… and it doesn’t happen. I often make myself as late as 10 days. Then I need to (more…)