Reunion.

I think it’s probably bad manners to write a post about being depressed or angry or unhappy; and then just disappear for a month. When last I wrote, my brother had gone to Florida to visit my parents and I (having not been invited) was left alone in Illinois with the cats. I thought some quiet time would be nice, but instead I freaked out. Strangely, I was having PTSD-like flashbacks to prior times when I was alone and feeling abandoned: the night the narcissist went to the ER, the night I decided to kill myself. Wow! It was so emotionally intense (more…)

Claustrophobia: my new loft bed is just like sleeping in a coffin.

I finally got my mattress! Yeah! No more sleeping on the air mattress. I am so happy. Good news, bad news. I wanted a loft bed, so I bought one at IKEA. I can stand and walk unobstructed underneath it, which makes it 5 feet 5 inches off the ground. I spraypainted the metal frame crayon purple and slid it around my bedroom until I got it in just the right place. It’s awesome. It’s supposed to take a thinner mattress so the guard rails will keep a child from rolling out and dropping 6 feet to the floor, but I (more…)

How Important Is A Loving Home To Recovery From Trauma?

Since I moved in with my brother 22 days ago, I have begun to return to the best version of myself. This is happening for one reason and that is because he loves me. (As an extra, he doesn’t criticize me either.) In this loving environment, I immediately started to blossom and flourish. The best version of myself is the Rivka who is always working on a creative project… or two or three. Formerly, when I was under the guidance of my husband, Driftwood (or the evil influence of a narcissist), I would start a project like tiling the kitchen backsplash; (more…)

Show-and-Tell Art Project. 28 Dec 2014. Door.

temporary link: Transcription: Shalom uvrachot. Today is the 28th of December 2014 and I’m doing Show-and-Tell with my art project. So on November 22nd, I had a really beautiful dream and it was very Lewis Carroll. I came upon a door that was slightly open, and I pushed the door open, and went in to a beautiful garden. It was really prehistoric looking, with massive ferns and greenery. Just green, as green as you can imagine green. So when I woke up, I decided to make this thing. So the door… First I’m going to deconstruct it and then I’m going (more…)

Reblog from Dr. Kimberly Harding: The gift of Prayer or Yoga or Meditation…(take your pick)

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Reblog: From K. Harding – The Warrior of the Galaxy.

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Comfort Food Award. “You make me feel good.”

. THE COMFORT FOOD AWARD. “You make me feel good.” In order to accept the award, please: 1. Select bloggers whose work brings you comfort. 2. Briefly explain why. 3. Send the badge to them. My first nominees are: Healing My Codependency – by C. – http://healingmycodependencyandyournarcissism.wordpress.com/ C’s blog makes me feel good because I like reading about her challenges. She gives herself daily, weekly, and monthly goals and then writes about how much better her life is becoming with each tiny step in the right direction. C is amazing. Soul Healing Art – by Dr. Kimberly Harding – http://kimberlyharding.wordpress.com/ Kimberly’s blog comforts (more…)