It’s been more than 4 years since I left Israel and stopped speaking Hebrew every day, but just yesterday I started to forget words. Just like that snap… I can’t make sentences anymore and I realized it’s my new diet. I am doing a liver detox so I switched from daily vegetarian cheese sandwiches to chicken. But the chicken is traife (not kosher). And now I can’t speak Hebrew. I hear that Trader Joe’s grocery store carries kosher chicken for sale. Of course I’m broke this week because I self-sabotaged and lost $300 at the casino after my mom told me I was “dirty” and nobody loves me. I got triggered in about 5 different ways last Tuesday, and responded by driving straight to the casino ATM. The great news is it’s just money. I’ll make more. I certainly don’t need to punish myself for falling off the wagon. The not so great news is I can’t pay my bills and until next payday. Plus, I pre-spent my $200 work bonus. Oh well. Shit happens. Moving on. Note to self: find kosher meat before I forget how to speak Hebrew.