Journal: 10Dec2017.

It’s been more than 4 years since I left Israel and stopped speaking Hebrew every day, but just yesterday I started to forget words. Just like that snap… I can’t make sentences anymore and I realized it’s my new diet. I am doing a liver detox so I switched from daily vegetarian cheese sandwiches to chicken. But the chicken is traife (not kosher). And now I can’t speak Hebrew. I hear that Trader Joe’s grocery store carries kosher chicken for sale. Of course I’m broke this week because I self-sabotaged and lost $300 at the casino after my mom told me (more…)

Abandonment issues.

Many times in the past I’ve complained about bloggers disappearing… We connected to each other and became friends and community because we all have abandonment issues. So when a blogger disappears, it triggers us deep inside. I vaguely remember writing a post about how if I went away, it didn’t mean I killed myself. In truth, I did go away because I was sad. Even writing a little post became too much because of my perfectionist attitudes. And then I get where there’s so much I want to say that it’s overwhelming and I feel like I have to assign 15 (more…)

Stalking my 1st ex-husband.

Today is 05Dec2017 and I was sitting in my parked car, with the headlights out, staring at my former house. Finally I tiptoed up to the front door to check the mailbox. I turned the flashlight on my iPhone to see if there was a name on the mailbox, but there wasn’t. Next I actually tried to read the name on the mail, but it was only junk circulars. I then decided not to knock on the former door. I retreated to parked my car. As I was sitting in the dark, a van pulled up. My heart leapt! Maybe it (more…)