I Forgive The Narcissist.

Yet another old friend person from my past found me via social media and used the reconnect to give me the shpiel: Wow, you’re back from Israel. You’re such a liar / such a hypocrite / such a failure / such a fraud. Admittedly, the second part isn’t spoken out loud – but I still hear it. Random people judge me and express┬áthat I let them down. I let everyone down when I left Israel. The thing is that most of the time, they aren’t trying to be mean when they let me know (through body language or words or pity) (more…)

Recovery Music.

I signed up for Pandora today, only 16 years behind everyone else. Pandora is an app of internet radio stations that have fewer commercials than YouTube, but don’t allow you to make your own music playlists like YouTube does. I chose a musician, Selena Gomez, and then Pandora suggested similar musicians that I might like. Meh. Music used to be so important to me. You know how you can vividly remember a year by the music you were listening to at the time? 1978 = ABBA, The Beatles, KISS 1983 = Madonna, Duran Duran 1990 = The Cure, They Might Be (more…)

Update. 03 Aug 2016.

most every day i think about blogging but get too tired at night. i wish i had an i-phone so i could just speak my posts. but really, it’s to play POKEMON GO! my phone gets so hot that i have to remove the case and set it down on a cold surface. waah. i only have 6 pokemon. it’s been 5 weeks since i developed SHINGLES. they are still showing on my tummy. if i get over tired, they tingle – but they are not hurting me. BH. they won’t go away, but they don’t hurt. they’re just sitting there, (more…)