Let’s look back at how I was feeling: 13July2015.
I haven’t been writing this week because I’ve been in a deep, dark funk. I don’t want to be here anymore. I want to stop existing. This is not the same as having suicidal thoughts, although I would step over a cliff if I could do it without being seen; but not anything active (versus passive). I was thinking more along the lines of seeing a giant whirlpool open up in the carpet and suck me into non-existence just like some cheesy special effect in a Dr. Who episode. The carpet absorbs me. Whoosh! She’s gone.
On 26 February 2016, I had my first chiropractic adjustment in 20 years.
After one session, the changes in my physical body were amazing, instantaneous, and unexpected.
Even while driving home from the appointment, I noticed right away that I could turn my head both to the right and to the left and actually see if traffic was approaching. Previously I only used my side mirrors and rear view mirror to look for traffic because I couldn’t turn my head to either side. (I was hit by a car in 2002.) After only one adjustment, I had increased physical flexibility that was mind-boggling. I had forgotten that I could move around like that because I had gotten used to being limited.
Also, my energy meridians which flow vertically up and down the body, those meridians were open and flowing freely. I had forgotten what it felt like to feel healthy. I had gotten used to feeling limited in that respect as well.
At this point, I should address that Chiropractic Medicine is a touchy-feely science, a New-Age Science. In 1897, Daniel Palmer opened the Palmer School of Chiropractic in Davenport, Iowa, USA with the goal of curing disease by correcting misalignment of the spinal column. My chiropractic team trained in Iowa and operates under the fundamental medical belief system (dogma) that: the body can heal itself, most if not all illness is the result of pinched nerves, and restoring energy flow to those pinched nerves will restore health to the whole body. My chiropractors take a lot of vitamin and mineral supplements, yet discourage the use of anti-inflammatory medicines (like Tylenol or aspirin) because they mask the signs of inflammation and prevent the body from healing itself. I am shocked to say that in less than one month’s time, I went from taking Tylenol every day and muscle relaxers almost every day to going 3 weeks without any of it. Wow! How clean my liver is going to be, because the liver filters all those drug residues out of the body via urination.
From seeing the chiropractors, I have increased flexibility and mobility; I use less to none anti-inflammatory meds, and my mood is much, much better, brighter, and more whatever the opposite of despair is. I have scoliosis, a significant curvature in my spine, and the chiropractor said the apex of the scoliosis is located at the control center for Anxiety.
KA-POW! My mind just exploded. Can you imagine the implications of that statement? What if Chiropractic Medicine were a real science and a lifetime of anxiety could be traced back to a spinal injury that occurred in utero?
I can’t wrap my head around that yet, nor can I stop thinking about it. There could be a completely physical source for my mental illness of Panic Disorder. Yes, it had to be turned on by environmental factors, but the bonework was there before I was born. What a freeing thought. I’ll be writing more about chiropractic and how it helps with recovery from narcissistic abuse.
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