I’m not talking about Driftwood. There was another husband before him. Two failed marriages. sigh
The first husband, let’s call him Sexy Beast, we were married April 1st, 1995 and finished by December 1997. I chose to marry him on April First because I thought that anyone who tries to have a successful marriage in this day and age is a fool! The odds are against longevity in marriage.
Anyhow, now that I have moved back to Illinois, Sexy Beast lives across town from me! I never saw that happening. I used to have panic attacks about running into him in the grocery store with some gorgeous new wife. That was 20 years ago. And I left him.
Now that I am near him, I think about him all the time and wonder if I made a huge mistake. I have fears that he was my true zivug (Twin Flame soulmate) and maybe that’s why nothing has worked out for me for the last 20 years. It’s crazy, but I need closure. I’m gonna have to go see him, fat as I am, and let him kick me in the teeth for leaving him. (Figuratively, of course.)