After the narcissist’s discard, when he left me all alone and so broken, I cried out:
I am not going to survive this pain.
I am never going to get past my grief.
I am going to grieve for the rest of my life.
I am going to be sad forever.
I am never going to be happy again.
I may never laugh again.
I am useless and spent.
I will never love another man.
It will always be David for me.
Well, guess what? I was completely wrong.
I did survive the pain.
I did get over the grief.
I did stop being sad.
I do enjoy life.
I do feel happier.
I do laugh every single day.
I did recover my energy and lifeforce.
I am ready to love again.
I still feel connected to David.
Okay, 9 out 10 isn’t bad. I still feel connected to my abuser, but it is not preventing me from moving on… with joy in the present and hope for the future. I have a lot of energy. I do things I enjoy. I work; I read; I write blogs. It’s all good.
Again, I did survive the pain.
I did get over the loss.
I did feel joy again and take back my life.
It’s a miracle and it feels good. So, hang in there. Your relief is coming, too.
Remember, there is nothing new under the sun.
Psalm #6 by King David. (estimated written over 2,015 years ago)
7. I am weary with my moaning; all night I make my bed swim; I drench my couch with my tears.
8. My eye wastes away because of grief; it grows weak because of all my enemies.
9. Depart from me, all you evil doers; for Hashem has heard the voice of my weeping.