At the suggestion of friends who love me, I attempted to drag my sorry butt to a CoDA meeting. Codependents Anonymous is a 12-step program.
Attempt #1: tropical rain storm. I was afraid to drive. #2: Dad brought home pizza. I chose pizza over CoDA. #3: another tropical storm #4: I don’t even remember why I didn’t make it.
At this point, I went to Amazon.com and ordered a book that another blogger had recommended.
Attempt #5: I drove to the meeting thru a light rainstorm, and it was cancelled!
The reason I doubt the efficacy of CoDA – without even trying it – is because, according to them, the first step in recovery is to admit that I am powerless over my Codependency. I don’t believe that. Yes, I do have codependent behaviors and I do get involved in unhealthy relationships, but nothing is incurable. I can learn new behaviors and I can change the way I think. I don’t believe that I am powerless. I do not know if I will attempt to go again. I think I will wait for my new workbook to arrive and decide then.