Tonite I am doing a small “happy dance” because I crossed a milestone marker. I am feeling really positive about leaving the narcissist behind me. It was something while it lasted, but now it’s over and it’s time to move on. That’s right. I said it. It’s time to move on.
Narcissism. Grief. Recovery. Yiddishkeit.
-These past months, I have learned so much information about narcissism. Why it happens, who it happens to, what does it mean, how does it manifest, what are the signs and symptoms of narcissism, what do they do, who do they do it to, and so much more.
Some of the most important facts I learned are:
it’s not my fault that he hurt me
they never stop abusing those closest to them
there is no known cure
Grief: Grief is a long-term companion. She’s staying with me, but it’s okay now. I understand that she will give me good days and bad days until it finally becomes only good.
Recovery: I love recovery. Recovery is the light at the end of the tunnel, the sunlight shining overhead after a dark night. Recovery is me becoming a stronger and healthier womyn.
Yiddishkeit: Yiddishkeit is me staying true to myself and my commitment to my faith, but understanding it in a new way. I’m not living in Israel anymore and things are harder for me now. I will get it all together in the end. I love my faith and my traditions. I think they are beautiful.
And so am I.