There is a well-known blog for survivors of narcissistic relationships (has 10,000+ followers) whose example I do not want to follow. I do enjoy visiting the blog, but it seems to me that for more than 3 years running, the author has been posting angry messages about her rage and pain. If I am still enraged and writing about my pain in even 2 years, I will consider myself a failure. (May these words never return to bite me in the ass.)
The thing is, I want to heal via my blog.
I want to honestly expose my pain and my delusions to the light of day, meet them head on, and defeat them. I want to uncover my motives, scrutinize them, and replace them with healthier motives. I want to come to self-knowledge and self-actualization. And I want to change my behavior… for the good.