… I realized much later that my scars looked just like David’s scars. He was a cutter, and has thick keloid scars on both of his arms from where he used to cut himself with a steak knife. I have a fetish for scars, so I think they are beautiful. Apparently that’s the wrong attitude because he is ashamed of them. I said, “Why? It’s not like you did it to yourself.”
You see, a cutter explained to me once that she had so much emotional pain inside of her, that she felt she had to release the pain, even if it took cutting herself to get it out. It’s not his fault. Besides, it made really sexy scars for me to enjoy. (See?! I am the perfect woman for him. I love his scars and I understand why he mutilated himself.) I call his scars his ‘tiger stripes’. After my second botched suicide, I had acquired three keloid tiger stripes of my own.
The thing about keloid scars is they never heal. They are made of collagen, the same tissue as muscle tendons. And yet… my stripes healed. I watched them disappear off my body during a 2-hour stretch one day. It was about 10am and my scars melted away right before my eyes. I knew that David was praying for me, asking God to heal me. He maintains that he wasn’t; but somebody asked for my miraculous healing and it wasn’t me. Also, he frequently does things in his other personalities (mpd) that the David personality is unaware of. Anyhow, my keloid scars disappeared and I just have some white chicken scratches now.
Always remember, Hashem can heal in an instant. He is not bound to natural law. If you ask the right way, miraculous healings can happen… just keep asking. (Think of Moses begging to enter the promised land. He asked over 500 times until Hashem commanded him to stop. ) Everybody knows somebody who got healed. If it can happen to them, then why not you? God can heal in an instant.