12:22 MINUTES-The mother of the girl didn’t keep Taharat Mishpacha…: http://youtu.be/6JvB_slkuZc
From the video: being bat nidah lowers the holiness of that woman. She is more likely to be rude, arrogant, sassy, and will have a much stronger desire for sexual deviancy than the average Jewish woman. However, there is a cure! Learning Torah purifies from an impure birth because “Mikveh Yisrael Hashem”. The rabbis asked,”Specifically, how does Hashem purify the nation of Israel?” Answer: Hashem purifies us with his Torah. -Yirmiyahu 14:8.
Recently I have been posting descriptions of David’s self-destructive nature, but today’s blog is about some of my self-destructive behaviors.
One of the reasons that David rejected me was because I had a boyfriend in Tzfat. ‘Yossi’ and I had become lovers about one month before David moved to town. For being too impatient, I created a barrier between myself and my zivug.
Let me first define the term ‘ZIVUG’:
According to the Torah and the Sages of Israel, Hashem took one neshama and divided it to create Avraham Avinu and Sara Imeinu. The neshama was called Avraham, and the guf was called Sara. They were two human beings who had different personalities, different memories, and different skills. However, they shared one neshama. This means that the two people were created to work together (in holy matrimony) as a united couple – to serve Hashem, their Creator, to obey His laws, to praise Him, and to become holy. Every good thing that Hashem intended to give to Avraham and Sara could come about if they served Him as a united couple – because Hashem had created them both from only one neshama.
This is significant because every living Jew has a zivug, a person who was created from the very same neshama to be their only true and perfect mate for the glory and service of Hashem.
David is my zivug. Before he showed up, I had lost faith. I imagined that maybe Hashem Yitborach had forgotten to make a zivug for me. (God forbid!) I was lonely and horny – because I am a bat nidah. There was a man in town who was coming on to me, so I phoned a rabbi in Miami to ask for advice.
The rabbi in Miami said there was no reason for me to be celibate and gave me a heter to have sex with the Israeli! It’s true. I had a heter. Why did the rabbi do that? He recently admitted to me that he did not believe that my mother is a Jew. The reason he doubted the truth is because I am bat nidah. Again with the bat nidah. The assumption is that a Jewish girl would not have sexual lust for men. Excuse me, but what world are today’s rabbeim living in? To summarize my experience: a man wanted to have relations with me, I liked him, I phoned a rav for advice, the rav gave me a heter to have sex outside of wedlock, Hashem smacked me really hard, I caught genital herpes, here comes my zivug… one month too late.
And all because I doubted that there was a zivug for me. I believed that Hashem had forgotten me. Now isn’t that a tragedy?
Avraham Avinu – Abraham, our father
Sara Imeinu – Sara, our mother
Neshama – the spiritual body, similar to the English word ‘soul’
Guf – the physical body
Hashem Yitborach – God the Creator
Heter – a ruling that permits behavior which is normally forbidden
Disgrace – חרפה (hare-pah)
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